Yesterday was a day of change.
That’s what life is all about. If you can’t be flexible, and roll with the change, you will struggle. I have spent many a day in that struggle. But not anymore. Now I embrace change. I’m flexible. I want to learn and grow.
Today my principal came into room 309. She sat in my rocker and gathered my class around her on the floor, and explained to them that when they return from Winter Break, Mrs. Carnes’ classroom, room 309, will no longer be. It is dissolving. Each of the dozen students I had will be going to different classrooms, and Mrs. Carnes is needed to teach fourth graders reading and math as a resource teacher.
I knew about rhis prior, but she wanted to personally come tell them before they heard it from anyone else.. I love that about her. We’re the biggest elementary in TPS, and she has the biggest heart to go along with it when it comes to her kids.
When she opened it up for any questions, one 2nd grader raised his hand. She called him by name. He asked “How do you know my name?” Her reply was “Just magic.” I know differently. I know its hard work. Research. She’s all about building relationships with our studenrs. And she walks the talk.
Numbers. It’s all about numbers. Special education student numbers are on the rise. Yet as she sat in my rocker she spoke to them from her heart. On their level. She left me with a letter for each of them to be sent home to their parents and guardians explaining the upcoming changes. She told them Ill be calling each of their parents next week when we kno who their new teachers will be. And I’ll walk each of them to their new rooms and introduce them to their new teachers personally. It went as well as could be expected.
I’m now ready to take on my new challenge. In just a fee short weeks.
The best analogy that comes to mind is this. My training wheels have been removed. My first semester ran smoothly,, similar to a child coasting along with training wheels. It’s now time to remove them. Ready, set, go. I’ve been pushed down an incline with no extra wheels to help me.
It’s exhilarating. It’s overwhelming. I’m scared to death to tackle such a huge challenge. But Im excited to. Teach just one grade. Ive been teaching five in room 309, 2nd through 6th.No more science and social studies. I always loved roller coasters. All those same feelings all bundled up into one. Here we go!
I am blessed with a great team, a support system there to catch me if I should fall.
I’m all about reading. And writing. My passion is to help students learn to read and write.
It’s now just on a different level that I’m needed. The change was not something I anticipated, but it is something that I will embrace. I will go with the flow. I will be where my school leaders feel I am best suited and needed.
My heart aches a little due to the bonds I formed with my dozen, but that cannot be taken away. As she told them yesterday, they can still visit Mrs. Carnes, just now in room 132. They’ll see me in the halls, and they will forever be in my heart. I love this kids! They were my foundation.
My parting advice is this. Be careful what you pray for. I prayed for God to put me where I could make a difference. I didnt ask for a change. But evidently He did.
I will forever cling to one of my favorite verses, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” For each moment I feel weak that I cannot do this, the journey that God has laid before me, I remember that verse, and I keep taking one step at a time.
As I look forward to the journey that lies ahead of me, wherever God might take me, I pray for my dozen in room 309. That each of them will continue to grow and learn to the best of their ability. That they will be kept safe and provided for. That they will feel loved and valued wherever they may go, and that they will always know that Mrs. Carnes loves them.
I’m ever so thankful for my days in room 309. Nine more to go! I can’t wait to see what we can do with those! We may be dissolving, but we will give it our best ’til the end!
I love you all and Miss Mary too!
See that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that their angels in heaven continually see the face of my father who is in heaven. Matthew 18:10
Love and laughter,