I’m sitting here writing this after working my first night shift in several months.
I left my full time position working nights in the PICU at the Children’s Hospital at St. Francis to go to days in a similar, but different career path, one still working around children. ♡
I left my full time status to take ECB status (emergency call basis) which is as need basis since I’d accepted full time employment elsewhere.
Last night I returned to the PICU for the first time to fill in as vacation relief.
It felt good to go back. 🙂
Professionally speaking, I’m not one to move on well and never look back. I don’t cut my ties. I don’t like to burn bridges.
I do the same thing in my personal life.
But one thing I have learned is that by distancing myself and having some space and time to think, may be just what I need to clearly see what I do and don’t want in my life. WANT is the key word here. God’s plan for me is what I NEED. There is a distinct difference between the two. My wants and my needs.
Do your wants and needs match up?
I know mine don’t. 😦
I want chocolate.
I need vegetables.
God has a plan for all our lives. But He also gives us freewill. Sometimes I know I’m guilty of following my wants rather than my needs.
I often feel God’s gentle nudging in one direction, but instead of taking that leap of faith, I look back and second guess myself or justify my choices and go in the opposite direction, the one that is my comfort zone.
We know God does not want us looking back. He has a better plan for each of us by moving forward. But what about going back?
Take last night for example, it felt good. It was my comfort zone. But was it God’s plan for me? To go back? Or do I totally let go and let God do a new thing?
I’ll prayerfully give it much consideration. Just like my personal life.
I hope you will too for your own life.
Until then, I’m back again tonight to once again fill in and enjoy my old routine. My old friends. I’m…
18 Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Love and laughter,
P.S. It was soooo good seeing so many of my PICU friends last night and this morning! I love you all! ♡